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Unless you've been living under a rock, you've heard that Elizabeth Taylor passed away on Wednesday. It's been neat and strange to see the pictures of her life. While watching the news programs scroll through her pictures, I saw this nine year old, age to seventy-nine years. Seven decades. It was 'neat' because you actually saw the age progression right before your eyes, and 'strange' because it reminded me that this life doesn't last forever. It doesn't matter if you're rich or poor, Republican or Democrat, an atheist or a Christian, young or old, our time here on earth WILL one day come to an end.
I'm so thankful that I don't have to worry about where I'm going.
Revelation 21:4 ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”
I'm certainly not going there because 'I'm good enough.' I'm a sinner and I will be until the day I die. I'm thankful that Jesus came down and suffered a horrible death for not only for MY sins, but the sins of ALL people. Grace. Mercy.
Ephesians 2
4 But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, 5 made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved. 6 And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, 7 in order that in the coming ages he might show the incomparable riches of his grace, expressed in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus. 8 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— 9 not by works, so that no one can boast. 10 For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Monday, March 21, 2011
Thankful :)
I had an AMAZINGLY productive day, with surprisingly little sleep. There were a lot of appointments to be made, which meant, many phone calls, waiting for return phone calls and coordinating schedules. I also had a lot of miscellaneous things that needed to be done, you know, the kind of things that take only five or ten minutes, but are SUCH a pain. Since I have perfected the 'art' of procrastination I had many of these miscellaneous things to do. Bleh.....but....I DID THEM! Wait, not only did I complete these things, I did it with Emily all up in my business, singing as I was trying to finish said tasks. Hey-at least she wasn't screaming or throwing fits.
It feels really good to get things done. Hopefully, I'll continue on this track.
To finish the day off, I just got back from driving our SECOND vehicle home! Yay!!!
This is the first time since September 12th, 2009, that we've had two vehicles.
Accidents -For those of you new to the blog.
A very good friend and her husband were selling their vehicle, and sold it to us for a VERY VERY VERY great deal! As I parked it in the parking lot, I turned, looked at it and my heart filled with joy and thankfulness at what the Lord has provided for us.
Isn't it great.....no matter how many 'wrong' things we do, He still loves us. No matter what Satan throws in our face, He will always work for the good of those who love Him.
I don't love God very well and I don't always make wise choices (I know, I know, hard to believe ;)), I'm not always loving, kind or a great example. I often stumble, become distracted and occasionally spew venom at poor unsuspecting people. In spite of all that, I love the Lord with all my heart and I know He loves me.
Thank you, Jesus-for being so faithful to me, when I am not always faithful to you.
Living, He loved me
Dying, He saved me
Buried, He carried my sins far away
Rising, He justified freely forever
One day He’s coming
Oh glorious day, oh glorious day
It feels really good to get things done. Hopefully, I'll continue on this track.
To finish the day off, I just got back from driving our SECOND vehicle home! Yay!!!
This is the first time since September 12th, 2009, that we've had two vehicles.
Accidents -For those of you new to the blog.
A very good friend and her husband were selling their vehicle, and sold it to us for a VERY VERY VERY great deal! As I parked it in the parking lot, I turned, looked at it and my heart filled with joy and thankfulness at what the Lord has provided for us.
Isn't it great.....no matter how many 'wrong' things we do, He still loves us. No matter what Satan throws in our face, He will always work for the good of those who love Him.
I don't love God very well and I don't always make wise choices (I know, I know, hard to believe ;)), I'm not always loving, kind or a great example. I often stumble, become distracted and occasionally spew venom at poor unsuspecting people. In spite of all that, I love the Lord with all my heart and I know He loves me.
Thank you, Jesus-for being so faithful to me, when I am not always faithful to you.
Romans 8:28
28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
Dying, He saved me
Buried, He carried my sins far away
Rising, He justified freely forever
One day He’s coming
Oh glorious day, oh glorious day
Glorious Day-Casting Crowns
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Fear Starts to Take Root.........
Luke left to pick up Lucas from youth group yesterday.....shortly thereafter I heard sirens.....VERY close to the house. Lots of them......just like in Sept. 2009. When this happens, I immediately text and or call to verify everything is okay.....it was.
I don't know when/if ever that will change. But, I started to think about when my fear started.....here is one of my earlier memories....
One morning, when my brother and I were in gradeschool, we were waiting for my dad to get home from work so he could drive us to school. My dad worked third shift and my mom would leave for work a short time before he would get home. On this particular day it was taking my dad longer to get home. I don't remember all the details or the exact timing, but I remember while we watched out the window, I would picture my dad just leaving work and in my mind, I would 'drive' his route home. I'm sure I did that at least two times as we waited and at some point we could hear sirens. You could tell they were really close. I think I was a little worried.....but kind of pushed it to the back of my mind. I want to say that either my mom or I eventually called my aunt to bring us to school.
Obviously, we were late to school, but went about our day. At some point, a teacher or principal (I can't remember which) came into my classroom and pulled me out. She let me know that my mom had called and my dad had been in an accident. I was kind of shocked and shaken up. I asked to call my mom to see how my dad was. I think I had wanted to leave school, but my mom told me he was fine.....I'm thinking....then why call me out of class to tell me that? Why not wait until we were out of school. The rest of the day was kind of a blur and I was still worried.
As it turned out, my dad was waiting to turn left onto our street, a car rear ended him at 50mph. Those sirens we heard were for him. When we were younger, my dad would RARELY, if ever, wear his seatbelt. For some reason, that day, he chose to wear it. Thank God! While he was waiting he also kept his wheels straight instead of turning them toward the direction he was turning, this saved him from hitting another vehicle coming in the opposite direction. If I remember correctly, he ended up fully reclined, with one leg up on the dashboard.
When I eventually saw the pictures of the car, I think I became more scared at what 'could' have happened.
Before that accident, I really don't remember ever being worried if someone (mostly my immediate family) was late.
I do remember being afraid and worried about death in general and not knowing what I would do if they (family/friends) died.....but I'm pretty sure this accelerated things even more.
As far as I was concerned, it wasn't just a 'what if'.....it came close and gave me more of a reason to fear it.
Psalm 23:4
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
I don't know when/if ever that will change. But, I started to think about when my fear started.....here is one of my earlier memories....
One morning, when my brother and I were in gradeschool, we were waiting for my dad to get home from work so he could drive us to school. My dad worked third shift and my mom would leave for work a short time before he would get home. On this particular day it was taking my dad longer to get home. I don't remember all the details or the exact timing, but I remember while we watched out the window, I would picture my dad just leaving work and in my mind, I would 'drive' his route home. I'm sure I did that at least two times as we waited and at some point we could hear sirens. You could tell they were really close. I think I was a little worried.....but kind of pushed it to the back of my mind. I want to say that either my mom or I eventually called my aunt to bring us to school.
Obviously, we were late to school, but went about our day. At some point, a teacher or principal (I can't remember which) came into my classroom and pulled me out. She let me know that my mom had called and my dad had been in an accident. I was kind of shocked and shaken up. I asked to call my mom to see how my dad was. I think I had wanted to leave school, but my mom told me he was fine.....I'm thinking....then why call me out of class to tell me that? Why not wait until we were out of school. The rest of the day was kind of a blur and I was still worried.
As it turned out, my dad was waiting to turn left onto our street, a car rear ended him at 50mph. Those sirens we heard were for him. When we were younger, my dad would RARELY, if ever, wear his seatbelt. For some reason, that day, he chose to wear it. Thank God! While he was waiting he also kept his wheels straight instead of turning them toward the direction he was turning, this saved him from hitting another vehicle coming in the opposite direction. If I remember correctly, he ended up fully reclined, with one leg up on the dashboard.
When I eventually saw the pictures of the car, I think I became more scared at what 'could' have happened.
Before that accident, I really don't remember ever being worried if someone (mostly my immediate family) was late.
I do remember being afraid and worried about death in general and not knowing what I would do if they (family/friends) died.....but I'm pretty sure this accelerated things even more.
As far as I was concerned, it wasn't just a 'what if'.....it came close and gave me more of a reason to fear it.
Psalm 23:4
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
After the Fact
People have been asking me how my fast went and what I've learned. I figured I'd just do a post and answer the questions.
Overall, I'd say it went pretty well. I cannot believe I ACTUALLY went five days without eating food. It started off 'easy', but as the days went on it became more difficult. The nights were probably the hardest. Laying in bed, tired and wanting to go to sleep....but so hungry! It was a real battle in my mind. Pray....hunger......pray.....hunger....until I'd fall asleep.....then I'd wake up in an hour or two and start again.....pray.....hunger.....pray......
Things I learned?
- Eating is such a habit.....a lot of times I don't 'think' about it.....I just do it. I had to be careful of that.
- It's hard to concentrate when you're hungry.
- Next time, I'll have more of a 'plan'--specific verses and requests written down.
- I am not very patient when I'm hungry.....I'll need verses for that next time as well!
- Apparently, you are not supposed to 'tell' people when you are fasting. I'm not sure about prayer fasting though....I like for people to tell me their prayer requests, that way I can pray more specifically. Plus, I'm not doing it for a 'reward'.....or maybe the 'reward' would be prayer answers? I'll have to get back to you on that one.
- Next time I fast-I will NOT tell anyone....unless they ask.....
- I like to pray for people.....so whether I'm fasting or not, feel free to send your requests on over and I will pray.
Here is a verse I found
Matthew 6:16-18
16 “When you fast, do not look somber as the hypocrites do, for they disfigure their faces to show others they are fasting. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. 17 But when you fast, put oil on your head and wash your face, 18 so that it will not be obvious to others that you are fasting, but only to your Father, who is unseen; and your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.
Monday, March 7, 2011
Crazy?
Lately, for obvious reasons, people have been talking about Charlie Sheen. When I first saw him, I was really surprised at how terrible he looks. :( I hadn't actually heard him speak until yesterday, when I heard bits and pieces of his interviews and.....WOW.
My guess is he has some sort of personality disorder....seems like it very well could be that he is bipolar. Listening to him talk, brought me back a little. It's so strange to watch someone else, not 'related', in an episode. I kind of laughed for a minute at the ridiculous words that were coming out of his mouth and that he actually BELIEVES them. Then, it made me sad as I thought about his children and what they'll have to deal with as a result of their fathers actions.
Most likely, if/when he comes out of this episode, he will not remember much of what he has said and done. Unfortunately, for him and his family, there seems to be a lot of footage of the 'craziness'.
This is one of his many quotes, "I am on a drug. It's called Charlie Sheen."
The grandiosity of bipolar disorder. Untouchable. No consequences. Not living in reality.
Hopefully, if it is bipolar (or another personality disorder) his family will get the support they need. I am forever grateful for the support I received....from family, friends and Jesus.
My guess is he has some sort of personality disorder....seems like it very well could be that he is bipolar. Listening to him talk, brought me back a little. It's so strange to watch someone else, not 'related', in an episode. I kind of laughed for a minute at the ridiculous words that were coming out of his mouth and that he actually BELIEVES them. Then, it made me sad as I thought about his children and what they'll have to deal with as a result of their fathers actions.
Most likely, if/when he comes out of this episode, he will not remember much of what he has said and done. Unfortunately, for him and his family, there seems to be a lot of footage of the 'craziness'.
This is one of his many quotes, "I am on a drug. It's called Charlie Sheen."
The grandiosity of bipolar disorder. Untouchable. No consequences. Not living in reality.
Hopefully, if it is bipolar (or another personality disorder) his family will get the support they need. I am forever grateful for the support I received....from family, friends and Jesus.
Bipolar Disorder (Formerly Manic Depressive Illness)
Bipolar disorder involves periods of elevated or irritable mood (mania), alternating with periods of depression. The "mood swings" between mania and depression can be very abrupt. Between mood swings a person can also experience 'normal' moods.
"Manic" describes an increasingly restless, energetic, talkative, reckless, powerful, euphoric period. Then, at some point, this high-flying mood can spiral into something darker -- irritation, confusion, anger, feeling trapped.
"Depression" describes the opposite mood -- sadness, crying, sense of worthlessness, loss of energy, loss of pleasure, sleep problems.
But because the pattern of highs and lows varies for each person, bipolar disorder is a complex disease to diagnose. For some people, mania or depression can last for weeks or months, even for years. For other people, bipolar disorder takes the form of frequent and dramatic mood shifts.
What Are the Signs of Mania With Bipolar Disorder?
The signs of mania with bipolar disorder include:
- Disconnected and racing thoughts
- Grandiose notions
- Inappropriate elation
- Inappropriate irritability
- Inappropriate social behavior
- Increased sexual desire
- Increased talking speed and/or volume
- Markedly increased energy
- Poor judgment
- Severe insomnia
From WebMd
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Sinus Junk
Today is the first time in months that I've had real sinus issues. I must say, they are not even close to what I used to experience!
In the past, a 'normal' month would consist of, at least one sinus infection--sometimes, two or more during the winter months. They were so painful and at times, there would be a day or two when I couldn't even get out of bed. I would have really bad headaches, my head was foggy and they wouldn't drain---it was all stuck.
A few months back I started going to a LMT (Licensed Massage Therapist) for CST (CranioSacral/Cranial Sacral Therapy). People have their own views and opinions on this type of therapy. I will admit, I was a bit skeptical at first. I felt like I had tried all sorts of meds (over the counter and prescription) for my sinuses and nothing seemed to work--so, I gave it a try. I have not had a sinus infection since....today :)
Right now, my sinuses are a bit stuffy, causing a headache, and some cloudiness. However, they are also draining, which I am very thankful for! Hopefully, it will keep it all moving out of my sinuses and out of my body!
In the past, a 'normal' month would consist of, at least one sinus infection--sometimes, two or more during the winter months. They were so painful and at times, there would be a day or two when I couldn't even get out of bed. I would have really bad headaches, my head was foggy and they wouldn't drain---it was all stuck.
A few months back I started going to a LMT (Licensed Massage Therapist) for CST (CranioSacral/Cranial Sacral Therapy). People have their own views and opinions on this type of therapy. I will admit, I was a bit skeptical at first. I felt like I had tried all sorts of meds (over the counter and prescription) for my sinuses and nothing seemed to work--so, I gave it a try. I have not had a sinus infection since....today :)
Right now, my sinuses are a bit stuffy, causing a headache, and some cloudiness. However, they are also draining, which I am very thankful for! Hopefully, it will keep it all moving out of my sinuses and out of my body!
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Prayer Fast
I'm on Day 3 of a 5 day 'prayer fast'. I've never (at least I don't remember) fasted before. I know there are all different types of fasts...I have chosen a liquid only fast and it is not easy!
There are a few different reasons I've decided (or accepted the challenge from the Lord) to fast--mostly, there are just many things that need prayer. So, when I'm hungry, instead of eating, I pray.
Day 1 was kind of easy. The hardest thing I think, was focusing on not accidentally eating something. I was busy most of the day and distracted......well, until I went to Lucas' Dessert Banquet.....nothing a little gum couldn't solve. :) I did start to get really hungry at bedtime though. I prayed, drank some water and a bit of SlimFast and went to sleep. I slept the ENTIRE night! It's been awhile since I've done that. I was encouraged and excited.
Day 2 was a little more rough. There were many prayers, but I was still pretty busy and so didn't really have time to think about being hungry. Bedtime was a bit harder....I was STARVING! Prayed and prayed and prayed some more. Drank some water and SlimFast, again....still, hungry. Didn't sleep well at all. Emily had a rough night and I was hungry.
Today, is by far the most difficult. I'd say I'm pretty irritable and it's difficult to pray and focus, especially with the kids running around all crazy. Well, I only have a couple days left and I'm sure it will all be worth it. For now....I'm so hungry.....
If you have any prayer requests, let me know. The trend seems to indicated the longer I go, the more prayers I pray!
There are a few different reasons I've decided (or accepted the challenge from the Lord) to fast--mostly, there are just many things that need prayer. So, when I'm hungry, instead of eating, I pray.
Day 1 was kind of easy. The hardest thing I think, was focusing on not accidentally eating something. I was busy most of the day and distracted......well, until I went to Lucas' Dessert Banquet.....nothing a little gum couldn't solve. :) I did start to get really hungry at bedtime though. I prayed, drank some water and a bit of SlimFast and went to sleep. I slept the ENTIRE night! It's been awhile since I've done that. I was encouraged and excited.
Day 2 was a little more rough. There were many prayers, but I was still pretty busy and so didn't really have time to think about being hungry. Bedtime was a bit harder....I was STARVING! Prayed and prayed and prayed some more. Drank some water and SlimFast, again....still, hungry. Didn't sleep well at all. Emily had a rough night and I was hungry.
Today, is by far the most difficult. I'd say I'm pretty irritable and it's difficult to pray and focus, especially with the kids running around all crazy. Well, I only have a couple days left and I'm sure it will all be worth it. For now....I'm so hungry.....
If you have any prayer requests, let me know. The trend seems to indicated the longer I go, the more prayers I pray!
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