Committed to Him

Lately, I have been dealing with an 'issue' involving someone I was once very close to.

There are many things that are being said, which simply, are not truth. For awhile, my flesh crawled with the thought of someone spreading these untruths to others.

I don't know what I find more angering/hurtful/offensive....

The fact that much of what their saying is not true?
The fact that it's being said about me?
The fact that it's being said about my family?
The fact that my kids are being 'used'?
The fact that others are 'buying into it'?
The fact that the 'rules' don't apply to all?
The fact that they can set boundaries, but don't feel the need to respect mine/my family's?
Oh, there are so many more.....I could go on.

One fact that I am having a hard time coming to terms with----doesn't matter.
I'm not here to please others. Sure, sometimes it's easy to say....forget you-I could care less what you think. There might be times where that's'actually the truth, but most of the time I do care. Especially, when someone claims to 'know me/my heart', 'understand me' or can 'relate to me'.

My flesh wants to gather up all my 'evidence' and present my case. To show others the 'proof' that what they're saying is not true. As a matter of fact, I started to do just that.

The truth is, it doesn't matter. People will form their own opinions no matter what.

My focus needs to be Jesus.

When Luke left, I cannot tell you how many times I heard "Divorce him." I was hearing it from all different people, including his mom. Had I been focused on my flesh, I would have. However, I knew that I knew that I knew, that was not what the Lord wanted me to do. So, I had to continue to stand strong in that. There was no negotiating. I was going to do this God's way, and that was it.

As I go through this recent issue, I have to make sure my focus is on Jesus. I am determined to do this God's way. He has always been faithful to me and I trust Him, even when it hurts, even when I want to kick, scream and yell.

Isn't it fitting that today, I heard a message on trusting God with your reputation? How we're going to experience rejection and we need to pick up and move on.

Galatians 1:10
 ¹⁰ Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.


Jesus was rejected---why would I think I am better than He is? His own family thought He was crazy.

I'd rather have God as my friend than a bunch of fickle humans who change their thoughts, opinions, wants and needs depending on which way the wind blows. That includes me.

So, today, I lay my reputation at the alter and give it to Christ.
I'm sure I'll have to do it again soon, probably in five minutes....but I am committed to following Him.