Reflection

 

So, I'm about to be another year older. I've really never had any issues with feeling old or being depressed about my age. Usually, I really look forward to the day. I have MANY good birthday memories, having my friends over for parties, McDonald's parties (anyone remember those?), being so excited about getting a 10-speed for my 10th birthday (aaahhh....that's Mikey's age!) and turning 18. The only year I had a 'problem' with was 25, that was the year I felt panicky about getting old. At the time, I had a four year old and a six year old!

Since then, I've been okay with the numbers, even 30. I think when I start to get a little 'sad' is when I look at pictures from way back and realize....it was WAY back! I mean, I don't think I'm old until I look back at all I used to do and think...wow....I couldn't do that any more. Working three jobs and walking to all of them, getting only a few hours of sleep a night, always busy going places or hanging out with people, leaving the house without make-up while wearing my pajamas and so many more things....

Today, someone posted pics that brought me way back. Let me preface by saying, I was not a fan of high-school. I did NOT care for it at all and no amount of money would ever persuade me to do it all again. I DID enjoy Senior Retreat. However, when I saw pics from this years CMH Senior Retreat, it made me teary eyed for a couple reasons.....one-I had a really great time with my friends and it was a great experience and two-because I don't remember as much as I wish I would. It's not like I was 'on' anything. If you know me, you already 'know' me. :) I just don't remember. :( THAT makes me feel old. Especially since I usually remember everything, details and all.

It's a bit of a loss, to say the least.

As I reflect on the last (almost) 32 years, I'm going to focus more on the many ways in which the Lord has blessed me.

• I love my children and the many ways they keep me laughing.
• I have a 'new' husband who I love-and I didn't even have to get remarried ;)
• I have fantastic in-laws who are VERY supportive and loving of me and my family.
• Loving parents.
• A brother who can finish my songs :) 
• A group of REALLY caring cousins.
• New and old friends who support me, love me, challenge me and accept me.

So, thank you Lord for all of these wonderful blessings and thank YOU all for loving me.