Beast

I have really (with the help of the Lord) been working on 'chilling out.' It is pretty easy for me to get worked up over unjust things. It has been going fairly well and had been getting better (really slowly) with each new (always something) challenge. However, it is still almost impossible for me to stick to that when it involves my children.

When I see or hear of how others treat my children poorly, there is this type of beast that comes up inside of me and wants to scratch someones eyes out. Obviously, I know I cannot....especially when it involves other children. So, I've had to rely on the Lord to guide me in the correct direction. Unfortunately, I've had to deal with this and fortunately, God has been faithful and calming. :)

However, what I have felt today has taken some extra restraint and major help from the Lord. I've found that when a family member who is supposed to love your children, and claims to, does something to hurt your children, the beast inside of me is worse than I have ever felt. I'm sure it wasn't by accident that the Lord had me experience it while driving. We don't talk on the phone while driving, so calling and 'freaking out' on the person wasn't an option. All I could do, was hold Mikey's hand and pray.....mostly for myself.

By the time we had gotten home, I had calmed down enough to keep praying and refrain from doing what I 'wanted' to.

I am so thankful that God continues to guide me and my family and I KNOW He will bring the truth to light.

1 Corinthians 4:5

New International Version (NIV)

⁵ Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait until the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of the heart. At that time each will receive their praise from God.