Sleepless in Pewaukee

It is currently 4:09am and I have been awake for about a half an hour. The last week or so I've had sleeping problems. Usually, I wake up every half hour to hour and am up for awhile. Then, at some point I finally fall asleep for an hour or two. However, I will suddenly wake up because of a dream. I have lucid, vivid and sometimes haunting dreams. By haunting I don't necessarily mean scary, they just stick with me long after I've woken up. I have a few dreams that are recurring and some dreams that actually come true, either exactly as I have dreamt or along the same lines. Sometimes, I can recognize that I'm in a dream and control it, my favorite thing to do is fly. :) The dreams are so vivid it is like whatever event is happening in the dream is real. It is exhausting.


I have had these dreams for as long as I can remember. When I was younger I would pray every night, "God, please don't let me dream tonight." It was really kind of nerve wracking and creepy. I especially did not like when some actually started coming true because I had no way to tell which would or wouldn't. So, naturally when I would have a bad dream, of someone dying for example, it would affect me for hours, days or even weeks. Sometimes, it still does. There was a brief period where I did not dream. The praying would help, but at a young age I wasn't really in tune with my relationship with the Lord.

So, here I am, 31 years old and it's consistently happening again.

Well-it's now 4:45am and I'm going to attempt to sleep for the hour I have left before it's time to start the day.

To be continued......


Continued

Well-I didn't fall back to sleep. So, I got three hours of sleep last night.

Today was the first day the Carrao Express ran the normal route. My father-in-law was unable to drive for month or so and we were blessed to be able to use my mother-in-law's vehicle. While it was a HUGE blessing to have two vehicles and not have to coordinate pick-up and drop off times, it was nice to be all together in one vehicle.

As we were driving today I began to have the "butterfly" feeling in my stomach. Usually, that happens when I'm anxious, excited or nervous about something. I had to ask Luke if there was because I couldn't think of anything! I had it for a few hours and now it's gone. So strange. Maybe it's because I barely slept?

Oh well....maybe tonight I'll be so tired I WILL get some sleep.