Here goes nothing!

Well, at the prodding of no one, the inspiration of many and the leadership of One, I have started a blog.

I actually "started" this blog a couple of years back. When I was going through the second hardest time of my life. Luke had moved out and I was going to use it as a way to get my feelings out. I wrote a post or two, but I couldn't keep going. I had to focus more on what the Lord was asking of me and being a single Mom to our three awesome (crazy) kids. Rather than start a whole new one, I un-deleted this one and kept the name.

I'm not exactly sure what the whole purpose of this blog will be. I don't know if I'll write daily, monthly or ever again. I don't know if I'll talk about the past (although it most likely will come up since it will always affect me), present or the future. I'm guessing it will be just random thoughts/experiences that I have-I can be a little on the random side. I've learned that sometimes I just have to do what I'm led to do without asking questions.

Maybe I should tell you a little about me.

First my family-I've been married to Luke for 12 years and we have three beautiful, funny children, Lucas (12), Michael (10) and Emily (3). My life is anything but boring.

Luke is bipolar and we joke that he is the poster child. He could write a list of his "likes" one day and two days later you could ask him to write his "likes" down and they most likely will be opposite of what he wrote two days earlier. We joke about it often but we know it's serious and it has affected us tremendously. But, it is manageable for both of us with the correct medication.

A year and a half ago my husband and all three kids were in two serious car accidents within hours of one another. This was the worst thing I have ever been through. Everyone is healed and healthy. However, we are still paying medical bills and both vehicles were totalled. Unfortunately, insurance did not cover all we owed on the vehicles and we had to pay out of pocket. So, we now only have one vehicle. Also-I highly recommend GAP insurance. :) Since we only have one vehicle I spend most of my time driving The Carrao Express. :)

I am a Christian. Most likely I will refer to the Lord quite often. He is a HUGE part of my life and there is NO way I would be where I am without Him. He has carried me through some pretty awful times. I try not to force Him on anyone but sometimes I just get so excited and want to share the joy with others. I'll probably mention how He leads me towards something or "tells" me something. I should probably explain that I don't hear voices and He doesn't appear to me in the flesh. It's really hard for me to explain and some of you may think I'm a freak. :) That's okay...I'm okay with being a "Jesus Freak."

I'm a very passionate person. I love people and I love to share and give to others. Unless, it's a treat I really like and my kids want a bite....then I have a hard time. :)

I really do love people though. Even when they're idiots....because....aren't we all at some point? I care about what they have to say and I really care about their lives. I feel their joy and I feel their pain....literally. I don't mean if someone pinches you I can feel it....if something traumatic or exciting happens to you though....I'm right on the roller coaster with you. It's helpful in my prayer life, but it can get hard sometimes. I've even had to stop watching/reading the news.

My passionate (some have said feisty) personality has gotten me into trouble.....not now but "back in the day" (and maybe a little now and then sometimes) if you will. If I was hurt I was very "passionate" (that's a nice word for it) about letting people know. My hurt would come out as anger to protect myself. That was a hard thing to break.....I am Sicilian you know......

I'm also very passionate about protecting my family and friends.....what part of being Sicilian didn't you understand?

Oh-before I forget....I'm a little on the sarcastic side. So, be prepared.

Hmmmmn-I can't think of anything else right now....but if I do....I'll let you know.

Thanks for taking the time to read. :)